I'll Try.....to fly

Ugg, I've fallen behind on my blogs. BUT, I got a notice from my graduation adviser that said I am now graduating magna cum laude! So working my ass off this semester seems to be paying off :-)

 Soo, let's see....Halloween was a lot of fun! I'm posting a pic of "Peter and Wendy", how me and Jason went for the party. I decided anything with a wig would be too much hassel and I threw together a Wendy costume at the last minute....as long as I stood next to Peter, everyone knew who I was :-) Jason, on the other hand, worked on his costume for some quite some time and it looked fantastic. Wacha think? :-)

....so we got some hard news this week. Jason heard back from Entertainment. He didn't get it :-( So he's stuck in Merch, at least until he can audition again. None of us can fathom it....he had such a wonderful audition and was asked to stay behind, dance again, was measured again, was recorded, and they took lots of pics of him. It was kinda heartwrenching to get his text that said "f*ck faith, trust, and pixie dust"
:-(
 but he can audition again in March....so we're hoping for the best with that. It seems that everyone who has been accepted are either girls or really tall guys. Perhaps they just weren't needing a Peter or Terrence at the moment. Of course, I got my email too...I didn't get it either but I wasn't expecting to. I wrote Disney an email asking them to reevaluate my interview and application. I explained to them that I have a lot of experience, both with hair/make up and kids. I will have a degree in December, I am planning to stay in Florida so I won't take off and run if I get the job. Please God, please please please let them consider it. I don't want to stand around and push a button. I want to be working closely with kids. I want to turn those little girls into princesses. I want to have that chance to make a child smile on their first trip to Disney World. I DON'T want to be wasting my degree. Don't get me wrong; working for Disney is a dream come true and I'll be happy to just be there. But I know this is what I want to do and how can I get into it after the program if they haven't given me a chance to do it during the CP? I feel like this is my last chance to work in the BBB. And I still think about it night and day and even dream about it. Forgive me, but why are the girls who have NO experience AND don't even really love the role, getting it over me???? I cannot fathom how I, who want it more than anything, can't get it and the girls who have gotten are like "well, it wasn't my first choice but I guess I'll like it"
 ....Both of us feel like we have been led on and f*cked over by Disney. Thanks for the one night stand, Disney...it wasn't so great! :-( What I mean is, well Jason had a great interview and everything that I just said that they did...well, we were sure he was going to get it.
And then with me, my interview was so great, she seemed impressed with my experience and usually in a DCP interview, they ask you questions about all your roles...I had 4 other roles and she didn't ask me anything BUT BBB questions--so I was like "wow...maybe I actually got it!" And then I got Attractions. So we were both led on to believe we were getting our dream. And shot down. Um...ouch.

So please, whoever you pray to, pray for me. Pray that I get a chance to fulfill my dream. Selfish time coming up.
I have always been a good friend. I am very loyal and very caring. I have always put others needs and desires before my own. I have never been a "bad girl", always done what I am supposed to, made good grades...not so much a goody-goody but kinda am. I gave up my dreams for love and had them torn up to pieces in right before my eyes. Not long after, I watched that love being torn to pieces. Is it so wrong to want something so badly and actually think I deserve it??? Is that selfish? If it is, then call me selfish cause I am so tired of wishing for others and not for myself. Aha, an epiphany...took long enough!

Well anyway, guess that's it. Just trying to get through the rest of the semester and my senioritis is kicking in hardcore. I'm just so ready to end it and start something new and wonderful.

Hope everyone is having a magical week! Lotsa love!


"I can finally see it, now I have to believe. All those precious stories. All the world is made of faith, and trust, and pixie dust.
 So I'll try. Cause I finally believe. I'll try, cause I can see what you see. I'll try.
I will try...............to fly"
 --I'll Try--Peter Pan II